The last week has been horrible for my anxiety. I am having quite a bit of internal conflict over some work things. Last night I cleaned up the apartment, started a new book, ate a delicious and comforting dinner, and took a hot, relaxing bath. Finally I was able to give myself a pep talk. If I am going to survive this temporary situation I have to adjust my attitude and find a way to make it interesting. Otherwise I will not be my best, confident self when it comes to interviewing for the new position. If I allow my confidence to collapse before then, I will fail.
I start grad school within the next month or so. I think it will be fine. I'm thankful I was able to take grad level classes as an undergrad because I feel more prepared for what to expect. Also, understanding that I am finally passing up the education levels of those I envied for finishing their Bachelor's before I did makes me feel pretty stellar. Though I should be more hesitant to compare myself and my situation to anyone else.
Watching HGTV makes me want a place of our own. But I am thankful we will be able to stay here with our reasonable rent for the next year or two. I think that is the wisest financial decision we can make. I spoke with Andrew about him needed to get his racing kicks in soon because once we have a kid, we aren't sharing that car, we are getting something more family friendly. Honestly, if he is set on that being a Forester, than it will be a Forester. We also talked about being in a position to start a family in the next 3 or so years. Cheap rent while we prepare for those things is optimal.
Thank goodness it has been a cool summer. Cool summers are the best kind of summers.
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