Winter is not my best season. I don't wear it well, though it hasn't been officially diagnosed, I believe I may have some seasonal mood disorder issues. Lately, it's been extra special tough. I have a boyfriend who is halfway across the country, a changing dynamic of girlfriends, a rough patch of shaken confidence and snow keeping me from getting outside and working on my fitness goals.
The quote about pulling an arrow back before it shoots forward has never felt so relevant.
So I focus. I'm focusing on Grad school options. I'm focusing on writing papers about GIS uses in urban passenger rail corridors and the spatial changes of Complete Streets projects, specifically the Living Streets Initiative in the Blueprint Denver master plan. And this is why I know I'm on the right track. Researching these things is exciting.
I just wish there was something to reassure me that I will find a job someday after all this work is done. I wish there was some way to know that all the work I'm putting into everything will pay off in the end.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Thursday, February 21, 2013
The People of Today
I'm a firm believer that ever person who interacts with me serves a very small or very large purpose in my life somehow. The intricacies of how each interaction intertwines with the next is impossible to comprehend and yet so incredibly fun to try and trace.
Today was a very good day.
The people who serve an incredible purpose in my life today, may not be here tomorrow and so, for today, I am simply thankful for the interactions they provide.
Today I am happy.
Today was a very good day.
The people who serve an incredible purpose in my life today, may not be here tomorrow and so, for today, I am simply thankful for the interactions they provide.
Monday, February 11, 2013
I Remember When We Were Gambling to Win
I think I'm finally starting to get the upper hand of my persistent cough. I slept almost the whole night last night and I haven't done nearly as much coughing today.
My map use and analysis class is reminding me of geometry. And though geometry was not the worse math class I ever took, the math part of the mapping class is making my head spin. Confidence. I have to be confident that I am smart enough to get it. Just because it's math does not automatically put it outside the realm of concepts I am able to grasp. This is my opportunity to prove this to myself. And I plan to fully engage with this challenge. This reminds me I need to locate my calculator.
April will mark my first ever 5k. It's exciting and scary. It is motivation to get over this cold and start training again. Before this thing took hold I was doing quite well with my training.
As we grow up, we grow apart. This makes me sad but also thankful for the memories I have with people. Lately, it seems like more people are growing away from me and me from them with these lives we work so hard to create for ourselves and I'm so very happy for all the lives of these girls who mean the world to me. But sometimes, it feels very lonely to be in a stagnation waiting for the next thing to be happening. The more people I talk to about this, the less crazy I feel and the more I begin to form new connections with new people whose turns have come about to play a role in my life and isn't that what life is? A never ending rotation of people who will find a way to transform your life in some small or very large ways? This is why I try so very hard to simply be thankful for the now and why I'm working to let go of complete control and stress for the future. Because right now is my gift and who knows what tomorrow will bring.
Also, the piano riff in this song is hauntingly beautiful.
My map use and analysis class is reminding me of geometry. And though geometry was not the worse math class I ever took, the math part of the mapping class is making my head spin. Confidence. I have to be confident that I am smart enough to get it. Just because it's math does not automatically put it outside the realm of concepts I am able to grasp. This is my opportunity to prove this to myself. And I plan to fully engage with this challenge. This reminds me I need to locate my calculator.
April will mark my first ever 5k. It's exciting and scary. It is motivation to get over this cold and start training again. Before this thing took hold I was doing quite well with my training.
As we grow up, we grow apart. This makes me sad but also thankful for the memories I have with people. Lately, it seems like more people are growing away from me and me from them with these lives we work so hard to create for ourselves and I'm so very happy for all the lives of these girls who mean the world to me. But sometimes, it feels very lonely to be in a stagnation waiting for the next thing to be happening. The more people I talk to about this, the less crazy I feel and the more I begin to form new connections with new people whose turns have come about to play a role in my life and isn't that what life is? A never ending rotation of people who will find a way to transform your life in some small or very large ways? This is why I try so very hard to simply be thankful for the now and why I'm working to let go of complete control and stress for the future. Because right now is my gift and who knows what tomorrow will bring.
Also, the piano riff in this song is hauntingly beautiful.
Sunday, February 3, 2013
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