My map use and analysis class is reminding me of geometry. And though geometry was not the worse math class I ever took, the math part of the mapping class is making my head spin. Confidence. I have to be confident that I am smart enough to get it. Just because it's math does not automatically put it outside the realm of concepts I am able to grasp. This is my opportunity to prove this to myself. And I plan to fully engage with this challenge. This reminds me I need to locate my calculator.
April will mark my first ever 5k. It's exciting and scary. It is motivation to get over this cold and start training again. Before this thing took hold I was doing quite well with my training.
As we grow up, we grow apart. This makes me sad but also thankful for the memories I have with people. Lately, it seems like more people are growing away from me and me from them with these lives we work so hard to create for ourselves and I'm so very happy for all the lives of these girls who mean the world to me. But sometimes, it feels very lonely to be in a stagnation waiting for the next thing to be happening. The more people I talk to about this, the less crazy I feel and the more I begin to form new connections with new people whose turns have come about to play a role in my life and isn't that what life is? A never ending rotation of people who will find a way to transform your life in some small or very large ways? This is why I try so very hard to simply be thankful for the now and why I'm working to let go of complete control and stress for the future. Because right now is my gift and who knows what tomorrow will bring.
Also, the piano riff in this song is hauntingly beautiful.
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