Tempura Shrimp

I left it all on the table, every last bit of what I have to give.  And THAT, giving it all, leaving nothing to regret is how I do it best, how I do life best.

Picturing my phone ringing, a Denver 303 number not in my phone, the voice on the other end "calling to let you know we would like to extend you an offer for the Service Planning internship."  The blissful feeling of knowing that this is the culmination of everything I have spent my 20's working towards.  All of the tiresome hours of figuring out what I want to do with my life, finding my focus and then steering my life through a sharp U-turn and making it happen.  Feeling as though I'm on the precipice of a major life event and not knowing where I am going to be in just under 2 years and knowing myself well enough to know that with all of the unknown, I can still find my peace in my present because my present is something to be proud of and thankful for.  Look around.  My life is perfect.

Christmas is happening in my 425 sq. feet of heaven.  I decided to make several snacking type foods and Hot Buttered Rum and rent Christmas movies for Christmas Eve and French toast and bacon Christmas morning.  I'm thankful I have a family who cares enough to not see me spend Christmas alone that they dropped their plans to come spend it with me.

Recently I've been feeling a lot more support from my family.  I know they have always loved me and have been happy for me but recently, I feel like they are really very proud of me and it is really truly an amazing feeling to break through.

Graduate school will maybe be happening in Austin and I'm all of a sudden excited beyond measure about it.  Something about the serious consideration of uprooting my entire life and moving somewhere I have never been is just instinctually exciting in me.  It causes a stirring and twitter in my blood flow that makes me giddy from a lack of oxygen in my brain and my fingers tingle with anticipation.  Just think!  A few years in Austin, near at the Center for Transportation Research, learning to be a premier mind in the thing that interests me most.  This also means the GRE will be happening, I'm terrified I will fail the math portion.  I wish I would have been more excited about math as a kid.  If I have a kid I am going to find a way to make math fun for him or her.  There are so many openings in life for people who love math.

Lena Dunham's character in Girls reminds me of me in the last year and a half of my life.  I'm glad that phase of my life only lasted a year or so.  Though I don't regret it, it was sincerely a year of complete and total insanity.

So many life forces at work.