Not Away From

Straddling this line, the one that separates being a girl from being a woman, causes so many different forms of I don't even know... emotion?  In my pretend land of a world I like to reside in from time to time, I have this notion that somehow the confusions of being a young adult just *poof* go way when I turn 30; like somehow I reach this magical age when I have my shit together and life figured out and am sure of who I am and what I want and confident that I have good ideas.  Lately I've been this little child of a girl who is playing dress- up in her mother's navy pumps pretending to be a career woman of a grown up because being a real grown up, frankly, scares the hell out of me.

Maybe it's the growing away from people who used to play such a prominent role in my life.  I'm back to a point where I don't have a really super close person in my life who I share a large portion of my time with.  I appreciate the time to myself, I do.  But sometimes it would be nice to feel like I have someone to go shopping with.

Sulking is definitely not in my cards right now.  I'm doing everything, possible, to fast-track my career and I seem to be on the straight and narrow with it.  The citizen's academy is perfectly the nerd outlet I need it to be.  I was had the opportunity to listen to 50 years of plans for RTD and I am super nerdy excited about it and I want to talk to someone about how cool I think it is but I fear that I push people away when I nerd out on that subject.  I get it, other people don't think it's that cool.  But fuck!  We have the most innovative, fastest growing multi-layered transportation plan in the country right now.  We are building ahead of schedule and under budget and it is a big enough deal that RTD was able to secure a public/private partnership.  This means that private business sees this project as something that has the capacity to be profitable.  THAT is huge!!!  We are implementing LRT, BRT, and HRT and 81 of 122 miles of new construction is either built or under contract.  Not to mention the new feeder route that will run from Union Station down 17th, like the MallRide but stopping ever 2-3 blocks to make it faster and coming back up 18th.  This bus will have an innovative way of getting people on and off the bus as well as ways to get back in traffic that will increase the efficiency.  I think that is my goal in life, to increase the efficiency of things.  AH!  I am just so excited about what Denver is doing.  We are THE learning laboratory for transit innovation right now.

And just because I'm so massively in love with this album right now: